THIS EMOTIONAL MADNESS CALLED "LOVED"

THIS EMOTIONAL MADNESS CALLED “LOVE”

The story you are about to read is a true life story of one of my converts who falled victim of the usual tricks of emotions which is often mistaken as love. Though I have for the purpose of effective communication, modified and added some emphases to the original story. Neverthless, the validity of the story and its events remains unaltered. The names and locations of the characters and events has been altered for security reasons.

Cynthia is a pretty young girl who gave her life to Christ after attending one of my seminars in the month of February, 2008. After her initial conversion , she has shown zeal and commitment to knowing the LORD more and more. It was because of this her zeal and commitment to knowing the truth that made her one of my favourites. Having lived as a youth in the world, I personally know the likely challenges that are facing most young girls and boys who has taken the bold and wisest decision of surrendering their life to Christ. Therefore, I took it upon myself to explain to Cynthia how to differentiate between love and lust and how to subdue the flesh and emotional feelings. She has always been faithful and sincere in serving the Lord. But, just last few days ago, Wednesday January 21st to be precise, I called Cynthia to know what is going on in her Spiritual life ( having been seriously disturbed in the spirit about her).

How are you doing my dear?

“I am fine” she replied

How is your spiritual life?

“Everything is alright”, she once again afirmed

Now Cyntia can you tell me the truth?
What is going on in your spiritual life, I seriously demanded

Something happened on 10th of January which I still regret. She replied with a faint voice that reveals how remorseful she was.

Without wasting time, I quickly demanded to know what actually happened.
She narrated the story of all that happened between her and Henry

Sometime in the month of October, 2008 I attended a burial ceremony of one our family friends father. There I met Henry through one of my cousins that attended the ceremony too. Immediately Henry set his eyes on me he became so much attracted to me. He was always looking for a way to have a discusion with me. He kept on asking one question or the other as if he wants to know everything concerning me. Though, at the the initial stage, I paid little or no attention to his advances on me but, as time rolls by I got attracted to his gentle nature and soft voice. He has a unique way of talking that kept me longing to hear his voice. Before, I know what is happening we have started chating as though I have known him for ages. He seems to be very open minded as it took him no time to tell me almost everything about himself, family and business. I was left with no option rather than to also as much as I can share my own side of the story with him. Before, the ceremony could end we have gotten acquainted to each other that we felt like not seperating. I was so much overwhelmed with his presence with me that I had even forgotten that I am in burial ceremony. When the ceremony finally came to an end, we can’t but exchange phone numbers and he promised to call me immedialtely he got home, a promise he fulfilled. After that day, no single day passes without Henry calling me at least twice. It became a custom that each day I look forward to receiving his calls. I lost count of text messages I received from him confessing how much he cares and loves me.

Cynthia, ‘since the very day I set my eyes on you, I can not stop thinking of you. The wonderful and lively moment I shared with you still remain fresh in my memory; I can’t just take my mind off you; honestly, you occupy a special place in my heart. I really love you”. He said to me during one of his calls.

After about two months Henry told me that he will be coming down to the eastern part of the country on a business trip and he invited me over to Enugu where he said he will be staying pending when he is through with his business. Within me I know I am not suppose to honour his invitation since I have been sternly warned by my parents and my spiritual mentor against honouring such invitation. But frankly speaking, I can’t just see myself saying no, he has stolen my heart and has showered a lot of gift on me just within this few months. I can’t just hurt the feeling of one who has shown me such a great love. So I immediately cooked up a lie which I told my mother, I told her that I want to visit my secondary school best friend who was operated on during the Christmas period and because I was so busy during the period I couldn’t pay her a visit. My innocent mother has no difficulty in believing my lies. As for you sir, (contrary to my usual way of informing you anytime an opposite sex starts pestering around me) I didn’t border to tell you due to the fact that I know you will try to discourage me from honouring his invitation.

If I had known that visiting Henry will leave me in such regret, I would have not honourd his invitation. However, on 10th Janaury, I visited Henry at Enugu town and we had a good time together. It was indeed a great fun being with him. While we were drinking he demanded that I take Small Stout but I told him that I don’t like the taste of it. He then requested for a particular wine. He as well persuaded me to drink it. Because I was overwhelmed by his care I agreed to his request even though I don’t quite know much about the wine. I never knew how acoholic the wine was untill I finish taking the second glass. Even though, I didn’t lost consciousness completely, I realized I was no longer my usual self. After about few hours I told Henry that I would be traveling back but, he pleaded with me not to go since is already getting dark. He said he wouldn’t want to risk my life by allowing me to travel back at this time of the day. Within me I know that I also don’t want to leave him. At his plea, I therefore called my mother and lied to him that the trafic jam on the road was too much so I couldn’t come back that day. I promised her that I will be back the following morning.

We immediately proceeded to a hotel where I and Henry lodged. During the entire night Henry tried to have sexual intercourse with me but when I remembered all that my mother and my mentor told me I resisted him with the little moral strenght left within me. But, quite unfortunately at about four o’clock early in the morning when I woke up to get ready to leave the hotel so that no one will see me. Henry made once again another attempt and this time it was done on me that I can’t resist him any longer, the love (emotional feeling) I was feeling inside of me for him was just beyond my control. I regret to tell you sir, that I without any resistance allowed him to have his way. I don’t even border to know if he was putting on condom. I was deeply lost in the world of fleshly pleasure. Immediately, we are done, Henry looked at me with a very obnoxious smile that seems to be saying to me ”Idiot, at last I had my way”. It was not until then that I realised what I have done. I have just defiled my body which is suppose to be the temple for the Holy Spirit. I began to remember vividly how my mentor has told me never to heed to the sinful desires of the flesh. It was done on me that I have dispointed myself, my mother, my mentor and above all my God. Instantly, I hated Henry that I felt like I had gun in my hands to shoot him to death. I quickly left the hotel rejecting all the money he offered me. When I came back home I knew within me that I am no longer my usual self even though I tried pretending as if all is well. I kept on asking God for forginess and mercy but I must confess I still feel guilty. I kept on wishing I never made that visit. I wish it had never happened. But it has happened already. Sir, I feel relieved now that I have shared this with you. Please pray God to have mercy on me and forgive me. I promise it will never happen again.

As I quietly listened to the story of this young girl who has been manipulated by her emotional feelings, the Holy Spirit made me to understand that many young girls and boys even the most innocent and disciplined ones have falling victim of this. They initially believe they are in love only for them to realise later that it was nothing but “EMOTIONAL MADNESS”.

God knew that our body will occasionally try to manipulate us thus, He admonished us through the Scripture to learn to control our body.

“It is God’s will that you should be santified: that you should avoid sexual immorality; that each of you should learn to control his own body in a way that is holy and honourable, not in passionate lust like the heathen, who do not know God”. 1 Thessalonians 4 : 3-5 (NIV)

My dear reader, did you get that right? When next that emotional madness which is often mistaken to be love starts, please, be bold enough to confront it and also nip it at bud. Don’t make the same mistake that Cynthia made. Any affair that moves towards sin should immediately be terminated without further delay. Always be sincere to your parents and also your spiritual mentor. They have been given to you by God to help you out in such delicate and difficult situation.

Thanks a million for taking time to read this story and I believed you have learnt vital lessons from it. Please, don’t hesistate to send me your reply or contribution. I would also be glad if you will be open to share with me your own personal challenges and experience(s) . I would be glad to give a helping hand and also share your experince(s) with you. Untill then remain blessed and rapturable!

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